Friday, April 16, 2010

Exams... :\

Today will be my first exam of my first year in the Child and Youth Care program. This is going to be the hardest. Even though it's an introduction to therapy theories, there are 11 of them.

Could I have studied more? Of course.
Am I an expert at all 11 of the theories? Not at all.
WIll I give up? No. I know what I know, the rest I don't. But no use cramming an hour before the exam.

I just can't wait to get this done. I don't feel like a failure right now, nor do I feel super confident like I got this in the bag. Kinda feeling... what's the word, indifferent?... Like, MEH. I"ll get it done and then I'll be done with it. Hopefully I won't have to revisit that class. Sure it's helpful as well as a bit overwhelming. But no use killing myself over it now...

Feels weird. This is my first exam after my year long hiatus from school. I didn't have one last semester, just papers and projects. We shall see what this will bring.

Moral of the story: don't procrastinate. Do your homework, readings and all. Have a study schedule, and stick to it, take yourself away from distractions. Finally, learn how you study best. I feel like I don't know how to study yet. In highschool you just memorize and regugitate what the teacher and textbook says most of the time. University, not so much.

Well, like I said, I will get this done and see what comes of it. I will hope for the best, but know that I will not pass with flying colors. Maybe paler, less vibrant colors. Uh, what happened to me? In my first year at college 2 years ago I was at the top of my Psychology class. Well people change. Here's to doing it different next time around. And after this I have 2 more exams to study more. Silly me, not learning from my mistakes... That ends now!

              a meh-feeling Alexandra of course...